Advent 1 On being careful what you wish for….
I have very few childhood Christmas memories. In fact I can only think of one. Perhaps Christmas wasn’t such a big deal before modern marketing and credit cards.
After the end of World War 2 rationing went on for years, and not just food. Clothes and toys were scarce too. I can remember how careful I had to be of my two precious picture books, specially imported from Holland, my mother told me. The first new coloured children’s books printed after the war.
For the Christmas after I started school I had only one desperate wish. I longed for a doll with hair you could brush. I only had two inherited baby dolls, who rejoiced in the names of Emmeline and Dorothy, but who wouldn’t win any prizes in the glamour stakes. They were both bald.
I wanted a “china” doll with a painted face, eyelashes and opening eyes, plus the all important long golden plaits.
Such things were hard to come by, but my mother searched until she found one and on the afternoon of Christmas day I carried my prize off to my bedroom to brush her hair.
It was then that the disaster happened! Her hair came away from her head tangled in the little hard brush. I was distraught with guilt and panic. I hid the crime under my bed and cried. Sooner or later I knew it must be discovered.
But wonder of wonders, when my mother sought me out it was not me she was angry with. She railed against the manufacturers and shopkeepers responsible for ruining children’s Christmas. My growing doubts about Santa Claus were amply reinforced by her determination to call these mundane, non supernatural bodies to account.
At some point in the following weeks a replacement doll appeared, but I never felt the same about her. I fell back on the secure reliability of Emmeline and Dorothy, and kept Gloria for show.
Like all my generation, I grew up knowing you couldn’t always have everything you wanted. You had to make the best of whatever came your way.
We were a bridging generation, living through the privations of war and postwar, the growing prosperity of the 60s and 70s, then onwards ever onwards into the blatant, credit-driven consumerism of the 21st century.
It’s hard to shake off that early training in the careful tending of scarce commodities.
A few years ago I stood behind a woman in the queue at our local garden centre. She had a trolley full of silver Christmas decorations.
“I fancied silver this year,” she was explaining to her companion. “We had red and tartan last year.”
I was rivetted by this revelation that there were people who actually changed their Christmas decorations. Surely these lived in a box in the loft until they rotted or broke and even then were only replaced item by item as the need arose?
There wasn’t very much pious preaching about recycling and conservation in my childhood. We simply never discarded anything that could be used or reused!
Even now the chairs at my own table are the sturdy wartime utility ones that used to stand around my parents’.
I still can’t bear to throw them away!